Jägerhorn

Jägerhorn Hotel Zagreb

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She was sitting in Jägerhorn café during jazz night on a Friday.

What is it within us, unexplainable and unpredictable?
Incurable, it appears, but curable all the same.

That insanity which you do not wish to share with anyone, that feeling of solitude, distrust.
That no one will understand you, that they will judge you.
That they will declare you abnormal.
That feeling that perhaps you will never feel better, that you are alone in this world.

We look for help on all sides, in every glance and conversation, in every sentence we read, even in every sentence we write.
In every segment of our being, our memory. Our mind.

So when someone asks us: How are you?
You’re good. You’re always good.

Marija

Sjedila je u kaficu hotela Jägerhorn na jazz veceri u petak.

Sto je to u nama, tako neobjasnjivo i neocekivano?
Neizljecivo, cini nam se, ali svejedno izljecivo.

Ona ludost koju ne zelis podijeliti ni sa kime, onaj osjecaj samoce, nepovjerenja.
Da te nitko nece razumijeti, da ce te osuditi.
Da ce te proglasiti nenormalnim.
Onaj osjecaj da ti mozda nikad nece biti bolje, da si sam na ovome svijetu.
Trazimo pomoc sa svih strana, u svakom pogledu i razgovoru, u svakoj procitanoj recenici, pa i u svakoj napisanoj recenici.
U svakom dijelu svoga bica, svoga sjecanja. Svoje pameti.

Pa kad nas netko pita: Kako si?
Dobro si. Uvijek si dobro.

 

Perceptive. Detailed. Impatient. Curious. Eager. Believer. Leo. marija@lestandart.com

2 Comments

  • June 1, 2014

    Robyn

    Deeply profound, Mari!

  • June 2, 2014

    Marija

    Robyn, thank you :)