Soul vs. Reason

Soul (whispering): “I love working with plants, I love cleaning, helping people..“

Reason (sharply): “Money needs to be made for food. To pay bills.“

Soul: “When you make the money, buy the bread and eat it, when you feel full, can we go to the forest and enjoy ourselves?“
 Reason: “Then we will watch TV. I’ll be tired, and tomorrow is a new and exhausting day.“

Soul: “But I want to plant..touch the earth..Smile to a stranger. I do not need television.“

Reason: “We will have a two week holiday, so then we can go to the beach.“

Soul: “I don’t like the beach, I like the forrest, the earth, plants.“

Reason: “Beach is rest. Everyone loves the beach. If we don’t got to the beach for two weeks, what else is there to do. We need to relax.“

Soul: “How nice it would be…“

Reason: “Shut up already! Can’t you see, I’m typing.“

Soul: “ Why are you typing? I don’t like computers. Apart from that, I need some oxygen, can’t you feel how stuffy it is in here? Go outside, can’t you see the Sun?“

Reason:“ I type because that is my job. I work so I can live. I am earning money for my family to eat and what I love is not important. There’s no point in opening the window, it’s cold! Don’t you know how much heating costs? Do you think it falls from the sky? And the Sun, my dear Soul, what do you think my boss would tell me if I were to take a walk in the middle of a work day to get a bit of Sun?! SUN?! You really make me laugh. Your ideas are absurd. Thank God I’m here. If I weren’t here, you wouldn’t survive.“

Soul: “I don’t feel well.“

Reason: “That’s not important. I keep everything under control, your only task is to stay quiet. And you can’t even do that.“

Soul: “But I know the right path! YOUR path! And there will be so many things, love, fulfillment!“

Reason: “What about money?“

Soul: “What is that? Oh yeah, that thing you keep mentioning?“

Reason: “ It’s what we buy food with and heat ourselves with, it’s what we need to live.“

Soul: “On your path, nothing will stop you. There will be no hunger, you won’t be cold. You will never miss a thing. There, you see, those blue doors, here’s the key, go through them, behind them is everything you’ll ever need. They’re there for a reason, go through the door.“

Reason: “You really believe that everything is so easy, well, my father told me: only through hard work will you reach your goals!“

Soul: “That’s a path as well. However, not yours. So go, go on, unlock the door.“

Reason: “Ohhh Soul, just stop bothering me already, can’t you see I’m typing! Now I’ve lost everything I’ve typed up!“

Soul: “Ok. I’ll shut up if that’s what you’re asking for. You’re too loud for me anyway. If you need me, I’ll be here.“

Reason: “I have such a headache. Again. Where are my pills?“

Let’s imagine that someone from the „outside“, someone who’s never lived on Earth asked us: „How do students choose what to study in college? How do people look for jobs? What is success for them?“ Would we have the heart to answer: „Well, listen, recently the wages have gone up in the financial industry, so there it’s getting quite crowded. It’s also good to work in a bank, good job if you get in there.“ Apsurd, isn’t it? But it’s in all of us. It’s who we are.

Success. Very few see the bigger picture. The bigger picture of today’s world, the bigger picture of Christmas, the bigger picture of life. We rush day in and day out, from task to task, in fear. Imagine I was crazy enough to fight the system. I would say „Don’t look for a job, look for an end goal, ask yourself why you’re here, listen to the whisper of your soul.“ My answer would be more or less „You wouldn’t say that if you were hungry“ or „Will my soul feed three kids?“ And they’re right, maybe I wouldn’t see the bigger picture if I were hungry. Maybe I wouldn’t have the luxury of making such a crazy decision, listening to your soul. But I do. Therefor, I am responsible to do so. Responsible and thankful, I am walking into this world with my pink sunglasses on, and learning. My goal is to love- to love my morning coffee, to love the crowded tram, to love all my tasks, to love death, to love every single human being, to love the final goal, to love myself, to love God.

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Duša (šapatom):  ‘Tako volim rad sa biljkama, volim spremati, pomagati ljudima..’

Razum(oštro): ‘Treba zaraditi za kruh.  Treba platiti račune.’

Duša: ‘ Kada zaradiš, kupiš i pojedeš taj kruh, kada se zasitiš, možemo onda u šumu, možemo se onda igrati? ‘

Razum:  ‘Onda ćemo gledati televiziju. Bit ću umoran, a sutra je novi naporan dan.’

Duša: ‘Ali ja bi sadila…dotakla zemlju..nasmiješila se neznancu. Televizija mi ne treba.’

Razum: ‘ Imat ćemo godišnji od dva tjedna pa onda možemo na plažu.’

Duša: ‘Ne volim plažu, volim šumu, zemlju, biljke’

Razum: ‘ Plaža je odmor. Svi vole plažu. Ako neću na plažu ta dva tjedna, šta ću drugo. Treba se odmoriti.’

Duša: ‘Kako bi bilo lijepo.. ‘

Razum: ‘ Zašuti više! Vidiš da tikam.’

Duša: ‘A zašto tipkaš? Ja ne volim kompjutere. Osim toga nedostaje mi kisika, zar ne vidiš kako je zagušljivo? Izađi van, zar ne vidiš sunce?’

Razum: ‘ Tipkam jer mi je to posao. Radim da bi mogao živjeti. Prehranjujem obitelj i nevažno je što volim. Prozor nema smisla otvarati, pa zima je! Šta misliš, koliko grijanje košta? Da to sa neba pada? A sunce, dušo draga, pa što bi moj šef rekao da usred radnog vremena izađem van radi ni manje ni više nego sunca?! Sunca?! Stvarno me nasmijavaš, apsurdne ideje imaš. Hvala bogu da sam ja tu. Da me nema, živa ne bi ostala. ‘

Duša: ‘Ne osjećam se dobro’

Razum: ‘ To nije bitno. Ja držim sve pod kontrolom, a tvoj jedini zadatak je da šutiš. Ni to nisi sposobna. ‘

Duša: ‘Ali ja znam put! TVOJ put! I na njemu će biti svega, ljubavi, ispunjenja!’

Razum: ‘A novci?’

Duša: ‘Što je to?’ , ‘Aha, ono nešto što stalno spominješ? ‘

Razum: ‘ Sa time kupujemo hranu i grijemo se, sa time živimo.’

Duša: ‘Na tvom putu ništa te neće spriječavati. Neće biti gladi, neće ti biti hladno. Nikada ti ništa neće faliti. Evo vidiš, tamo- ona plava vrata, evo ti ključ, idi kroz njih, iza njih je sve što će ti ikada zatrebati, tu si sa svrhom. Idi kroz vrata i ispuni ju.’

Razum: ‘ Ti stvarno vjeruješ da je sve tako lako, pa rekao je meni moj tata: samo radom ćeš doći do ciljeva!’

Duša: ‘I to je put. Ali ne tvoj. No hajde, kreni, otključaj ih.’

Razum:’ Joooj dušo, prestani me ometati više, vidiš da tipkam! Sada sam pobrisao sve što sam natipkao!’

Duša:’Dobro. Zašutit ću ako to tražiš. Ionako si preglasan. Ako me zatrebaš, tu sam.’

Razum: ‘ Jako me boli glava. Opet. Gdje je tableta? ‘

Zamislimo da nas netko ‘izvana’, netko tko nikada nije živio na Zemlji upita: ‘Kako studenti biraju smjer na faxu? Kako ljudi  traže posao? Što je za njih uspjeh?’. Bismo li mu  imali srca odgovoriti: ‘ Pa čuj, u zadnje vrijeme je dosta porasla plaća u financijskoj, pa je na smjeru financija najveća gužva.A i u banci je dobro raditi, to ti je super ako se tamo uvališ. ‘ Apsurdno, zar ne?  Ali to je u nama. To smo mi.
Uspjeh. Rijetki vide generalnu sliku svijeta. Generalnu sliku današnjeg dana, generalnu sliku Božića, generalnu sliku života. Jurimo iz dana u dan iz zadatka u zadatak, u strahu. Zamislimo da sam dovoljno luda, da idem mjenjati sustav. Rekla bi: ‘Nemoj tražiti posao, traži krajnji cilj, pitaj se zašto si ovdje, osluhni šapat duše’ , odgovor bi bio otprilike ovakav:  ‘Ne bi ovo govorila da si kruha gladna’ ili ‘Što će moja duša hranit troje djece?’.  I imaju pravo, možda ne bi vidjela generalnu sliku da sam kruha gladna. Možda ne bi imala luksuz donjeti tako suludu odluku, poslušati dušu. Ali imam. I stoga sam odgovorna. Odgovorna i zahvalna, krećem u svijet, nabacujem roze naočale i učim. Moj cilj je voljeti, voljeti jutarnju kavu,voljeti gužvu u tramvaju, voljeti sve zadatke, voljeti smrt, voljeti svako živo biće, voljeti cilj, voljeti sebe, voljeti život, voljeti Boga.

 

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