To Be Shallow

She lost weight, buried the important. Erased who she was, forgot who her friends were.
She decided to learn from the great. Set your mind to it, and make it happen. Step over anyone and anything to get what what you want. One way, or another, you will have everything, you will make it, you will get to the top.

So she became vegan by eating Kinder Bueno when she felt faint, and convinced herself she doesn’t need anyone for real. Her head hurts from spirits, so she pops a pill to have fun at parties, to ease the senselessness. Her life line is spirituality, but there is nothing of it in her actions. She asks you questions and looks away, she is not interested in your answers as she once was. All she needs to know is how to grab onto you, now you are the ladder.

Hopefully one day up on top, she won’t feel how lonely such great heights can be. Though, maybe it was wrong to have expected so much, maybe she always had it in her… To be shallow.

Marija

Smršavila je, zakopala sve bitno, izbrisala ono što je bila, zaboravila na stare prijatelje.

Odlučila je naučiti od najmoćnijih. Fokusiraj se na cilj  i ostvari ga. Pregazi bilo koga i bilo što da dobiješ ono što želis. Na ovaj ili na onaj način ćeš imati sve, uspjet ćeš, stići ćeš do vrha.

Tako je postala vegan, kad bi joj bilo slabo bi pojela Kinder Bueno. Uvjerila se da joj ne treba nitko za stvarno. Glava ju zaboli od žestica, pa pokoja tableta učini party zanimljivijim. Životni moto joj je duhovnost, ali u njenim djelima ga nema ni trunke. Ispituje te pitanja, pa joj pogled bježi, ne zanimaju ju tvoji odgovori kao prije. Jedino što treba znati je kako da se uhvati za te, sad si samo stepenica.

Nadajmo se da jednog dana neće osjećati kako je usamljeno biti na vrhu. Iako, možda je bilo krivo i očekivati toliko puno od nje. Možda je oduvijek imala ono nešto plitko u sebi.

Perceptive. Detailed. Impatient. Curious. Eager. Believer. Leo. marija@lestandart.com

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